DISCLAIMER:
These stories are inspired by Felicia’s colorful 2017. If the reader prefers, the short stories/blogs or parts of it may be regarded as fiction. But as Ernest Hemingway said, there is always the chance that fiction may throw some light on what has been regarded as fact.
I am hoping you have read some of my past blogs already. Otherwise, you may be lost in this one. For a little background, I suggest to read blog entry, "The One When I Spent My First Weekend in Hartford."
“The One with San
Francisco?”
“The One with Thurgood
Marshall?”
“The One with the
Conferences?”
“The One with Aunt
Roxanne?”
“The One with Fake
News?”
“The One with Samantha
Knows?”
For purposes of continuity, I’ll go with
“The One with Thurgood Marshall,” aka “…the Oscars, continued.” (See blog entry, “The One with the Oscars” for part 1)
“The One with Thurgood Marshall,” aka “…the Oscars, continued.” (See blog entry, “The One with the Oscars” for part 1)
I enjoyed the 2018 Oscars very much. I thought Jimmy Kimmel did a
great job, and Wonderwoman, Gal Gadot (my son’s dream girl) and Gina Rodriguez
were my best dressed. Although I must say Helen Mirren looked extra-fabulous
showing off that jet ski, the sought after price for whoever made
the shortest speech that evening.
Wait a minute. Dave Chappelle? Thurgood Marshall? What are the
chances? Lightbulb! I know what to write about next.
Sometime between February 2017 (John and Felicia’s last
Valentine) and May 2017 (“The One When I Found Out,”) John sent me these
messages, messages which made me hopeful about us.
Even after May 2017
and until November 2017, John and I still had a few text and email exchanges.
(Readers- Don’t get mad just yet. I too, wished I just blocked him. But then
again, I probably won’t have this much of good material to write about. And
during that time, I still did not know about John’s double life.)
This is
a series of text messages between me and John on October 14, 2017.
How predictable that his response to my text message was "Are you serious??!!" And how foolish of me to even wish that I was going to receive something like, "I guess I deserve that one. You are right. I'm sorry." I knew it was childish, but after all the juvenile shenanigans from him, I should be allowed one immature comeback. Actually, I was torn between sending that “Maybe
because I paid for your last trip to San Fran not knowing you were already
cheating on us” message and sending this image instead.
From: Smith, John
Sent: Saturday, October 14, 2017 2:50:21 PM To: Life, Felicia Subject:
Go
see the movie Marshall. It was really good!! I went to see it
with Nadine last night.
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From: Life, Felicia
Sent: Saturday, October 14, 2017 6:57:02 PM To: Smith, John Subject: Re:
Thanks,
hunny.
Now,
why don't you take a screen shot of your first 3 text messages and ask your
girlfriend if that's cheating or not.
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From: Smith, John
Sent: Saturday, October 14, 2017 7:02:53 PM To: Life, Felicia Subject: Re:
I
don’t have a girlfriend. But like I said, I won’t communicate anymore
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From: Life, Felicia >
Sent: Saturday, October 14, 2017 7:07:50 PM To: Smith, John Subject: Re:
Wow, no
overlap, this time?! Oh well...Not for long, I'm sure. Men like you can't be
alone.
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From: John Smith >
Sent: Saturday, October 14, 2017 7:34:06 PM To: Life, Felicia Subject: Re:
You
don’t know me.
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From: Life, Felicia >
Sent: Saturday, October 14, 2017 8:36:45 PM To: John Smith Subject: Re:
Actually,
now I do. You won't last
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From: John Smith >
Sent: Saturday, October 14, 2017 9:01:13 PM To: Life, Felicia Subject: Re:
This
is exactly what I was talking about the last time I saw you.
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From: Life, Felicia >
Sent: Saturday, October 14, 2017 9:18:30 PM To: John Smith Subject: Re:
No,
hunny. This is you finding an excuse or blaming somebody else.
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From: John Smith >
Sent: Saturday, October 14, 2017 9:21:52 PM To: Life, Felicia Subject: Re:
Indeed
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From: Life, Felicia >
Sent: Saturday, October 14, 2017 9:26:22 PM To: John Smith Subject: Re:
You
need constant loving and I get it.
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From: John Smith >
Sent: Saturday, October 14, 2017 9:30 PM To: Life, Felicia Subject: Re:
You
don’t get it.
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From: Life, Felicia >
Sent: Saturday, October 14, 2017 9:36:06 PM To: John Smith Subject: Re:
Sweetheart,
you forgot to say "That is not true" or "You are wrong"
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From: John Smith >
Sent: Saturday, October 14, 2017 10:03:20 PM To: Life, Felicia Subject: Re:
Guess
my memories going in my old age.
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From: Life, Felicia >
Sent: Saturday, October 14, 2017 10:08:31 PM To: John Smith Subject: Re:
Finally...a
truth from you!
😉
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From: John Smith >
Sent: Saturday, October 14, 2017 10:35:23 PM To: Life, Felicia Subject: Re:
Hate
me all you want. But you know a lot less than you think you do about
me.
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So not only
did he send me a text message about the Marshall movie, he also emailed me. It must be a be a really good movie.
I know I could
have ignored this one, but after the earlier text messages, I felt a bit
empowered, that I decided to respond with sarcasm. I didn’t think he was
going to respond, but he did. He was right about me not knowing him. I didn’t know the
“real” John, until November 2017.
The 9:01:13PM message on that transcript when he said “This is exactly what I was talking
about the last time I saw you.” Big Spoiler Alert! He
was talking about July 2017, when he was in Boston for his summer residency
program at Loyola University. (See blog entry, “The One with Summer Surprises”) We met at a restaurant the last day of his residency. I remember him saying, “ There’s so much
water under the bridge. You will never see me the way you used to.
You will never trust me again.” We were not even talking about a
reconciliation, but somehow, he said those as if I was considering it, but then
he already had an answers for it.”
Yes, I kept responding to
the messages with all sarcasm. I know it’s childish,
but I felt I was finally sort of striking back at him. I can’t let go of this
rare opportunity. Also, the message when he said “Hate me all you
want. But you know a lot less than you think you do about me?” Again, he was right about this. I did
not know that “Dr. Jekyll“ had one
messed up “Mr. Hyde." See blog entry... oh well… just see ALL blog entries where Lili
told me the truth about John on November 2017.
By the way, on November 2017 (Lili’s Office), I did tell Lili about the text messages and emails from San Francisco. I remember her shaking her head saying, “ John was lying to you about not having a girlfriend at that time. We already live together. We only had a little fight back then because I did not want to join him on that trip to San Francisco. I still dropped him off at the airport, you know.” I smirked a bit, as I thought to myself, “Why was she trying to convince me that they were still together at that time? Why was she more focused on me being lied to?Shouldn’t she be more concerned that her live-in boyfriend, was still communicating with me? The cheated with is being cheated on.” And speaking of communications, this was another one I received from John earlier in October, while I was at the hospital waiting for my cardiologist.
I found this picture of Thurgood Marshall with his wife Cecilia
Suyat. She was fixing his robe, giving her husband a last minute check before
his swearing in at the Supreme Court in 1967. I once imagined myself
doing the same thing to John when he graduates from Loyola University, and
finally get that PhD. Who knew two very much in love (or was he), highly
educated people would end up in a shitty situation like this. How could I have
missed all the clues and all the red flags? I remember telling all these
to my cousin, Trixie. This was Trixie’s response- “I guess no matter how
educated you are, your heart is at the same level as everyone else.”
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Comments
you cheated on, who didn’t know you cheated on someone with her, and with the one you are with now, who also cheated on someone else, as she admits you cheated with her, on the two you previously cheated on” LOL